估计，今天会有一群熟人都写一个主题了。

傍晚，去看了大姐刚降生的小宝宝，是个男孩，竟然和我一样，郁闷。不过，从表象上看，虽刚出生两天，也比活了好几十年的我头发多，光凭这一点，就已经将我彻底击溃了。

一个老小的房间里，挤满了流水般的人，一拨一拨又一拨，三两分钟就四散走了。仿佛已经没有了当年我在时但凡是个聚会都拖泥带水不肯走人的情境了，突然，又领悟到自己的重要性，高兴了一阵子。

一群大人，围着一个小毛头，叽叽喳喳的叫唤，还时不时带一两句对领导同志的揶揄，小毛头躺在最中间，完全不理会我们的风言风语，独自一个宁静致远。看来最开始的才是最智慧的活法呢，可惜如今明白的晚了些。我已经去做了销售，除非哪天急性失忆，不然就这么得过且过吧，也别要求太高了。

最后，大喊两声——

一财的底底层人民，万岁！离开一财的底底层人民，万岁！

我没话讲好多年了，今天试图憋点什么出来也不能够。

终于，我想起了前两天看的动画片，还是我最喜欢的一群人物，于是就把他们贴出来吧。

哎，实在没话讲了……

Today is the final match of World Cup. I’m not going to stand by TV in midnight, since I need to work tomorrow. Woo. I hope all my leaders, no matter major or minor, could hear this words so much. 

Yesterday, I attended a soccer game held by colleagues. Unfortunately, all day was pouring down. So before launching, I sent a message to one of the organizers, ‘the forecast says it’s raining, is the game cancelled’. 

After a long time waiting, I got the order to play on. As investigation after the event showed, opposite to me, major part of my colleagues strongly rejected to cancel the game. Why do so many ppl take the risk of stricken by lightening for that boring ball, though the forecast never said there would be thundershower.

So things are so clear. I am just a fake of loving soccer, even without the basic knowledge of which part of feet I should use to kick the ball. In fact, I’d better watch some romantic TV play with wet handkerchief. 

一种全新的生存状态，是我原本始料未及的。原来以为大公司总是一部很润滑的战斗机器，销售者只是将使用者领进门，接下来就是等着其他的同事好好去伺候。但目前完全不是这样。

从星期三开始直到刚才就一直被各种各样的投诉纠缠着，有人在破口大骂，有人说他已经心灰意冷，有人说为什么我花了钱还要担惊受怕，我怎么知道，我自己也不明白，我只拿了一份薪水，但却要做那么多其他职能部门的工作。

整整5天，就像梦游一样活着，资源不在身边，我满世界的跑，只能用一张嘴去平息一群人的怒火，被人斜着眼睛从上到下的逼视，最后一点点底气都从毛孔中溜走了。

我一直用这样一句话来安慰自己：如果产品本身尽善尽美，那就不需要我们这些做销售的人了。于是，还时常怀着感恩之情去面对多余的工作，只是这些精神暗示总也不能永远起作用。如果在如此的历练中，我能看到自己将来的好日子，那也完全无所谓，可是前途仍是半点好征兆都没有。

深圳有个人被累死了，是谁杀死了他？如果一个公司，人人都能将自己的本职工作做好，就不需要更多的人去为之分担分外的工作，花去分外的精力。

那些，我最亲爱的同事们，朋友们，你们正在冷漠的张开漆黑的五指划破别人的喉管。

上周刚找到些许美好的感觉，今天又被无情打击。人么，总是要注意收敛，要居安思危的，太正确了。

上周五，在我的精心安排下，我带着我们的总经理去拜访客户，客户们都毫无保留的夸奖我，以至于总经理大人对我青睐有加，得意忘形，这周头两天几乎进入休息状态，结果，今天就接到部门经理的通知，叫我写最近业绩滑坡的报告给总经理。

我一个人伏案疾书，我的搭档，坐在旁边，就像个没事人，然后临末了走过来，淡淡地说，让我看看你写的怎么样了——这样还不行，要这么写……然后把我给教育了一通。

谁让我当时贪心，没和客户兄弟姐妹们打招呼也要为我的搭档美言几句呢。不过，我想他也不知道，我保密工作向来高人一等，只恐怕是单位里的有心人碍事，捕风捉影的露了馅。

回家路上，我再次找人发泄了一通，好好数落了我的搭档一番，当然没告诉别人写报告的事情，毕竟这不怎么光彩。然后，我突然想到下午一个兄弟姐妹给我语重心长地说——做好不如做长，抢打出头鸟——有道理的紧。

By Metallica

Band members James Hetfield, Lars Ulrich, and Kirk Hammett wrote this. According to James, he wrote the song about a girlfriend he once had, but when he looks back at it, he can't remember why he wrote it. Now, Metallica just considers it a song about their fans, because nothing else matters but their fans.

The song was composed in 1991, long time ago. It got me into heavy metal and rock, everthing and the only thing of Metallica. I'll never get bored of it...

Below is the lyric:

Nothing Else Matters

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
and nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
but I know

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us, something new
Open mind for a different view
and nothing else matters

never cared for what they say
never cared for games they play
never cared for what they do
never cared for what they know
and I know

So close, no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No, nothing else matters